¡Hola! ¿Cómo hacen ustedes todos esta hermosa de domingo?
(Translation: Hello! How are you all doing this beautiful Sunday?)
So less than 24 hours to go before my "set" deadline to have everything in order... actually set. Not to be freaking out or anything.... but I have a few friends say that they will help me on my quest to Mazatlán, Mexico. I'm still walking in faith that the Lord will provide a way, path, and the means of travel for this mission He's placed me on. I'm not.... er.... correction I'm going to try not to let things get too me still not knowing which what is what, or how things are going to come about.
I figure this blog post can inform my prayer worrier friends and family about some of the specifics. So you know what to pray for, how to pray, and what is still yet needed (which where I sit now.... EVERYTHING - talk about walking by faith, right?). Let's start by showing ya'll where Mazatlán Mexico actually is. It's on the West cost, Northwest of Mexico City on the Pacific Ocean.
And is about 8 and a half hours Southwest from Monterrey, Mexico
In the upper right corner of this picture is SanAntonio, TX.
Now some of the actual numbers. For 7 days of serving (not including flight costs) it is $675. This covers everything from food, housing, to projects.
I've been looking into flights since I got home from church today. WOW!!!! CVG is EXPENSIVE to fly out of!!!! I'm just going to say that one of the flights that I can even begin to look at has an 8 hour travel time and it's $987's starting out. I looked into other closer airports: Dayton, OH and Indianapolis, IN. The fares seem more reasonable (but that's just my opinion).
Flying out of Dayton International Airport:
US Airways Flight 424/2896 - Leaves at 6:45 AM and arrives in Mazatlán, MX at 12:10 PM and has one stop in Dallas, TX (Connection time of 2 hrs and 40 min) - total travel time of 7 hours and 25 minutes
Flying home
US Airways Flight 2896/1658 Leaves at 12:50 PM and arrives in Dayton at 11:10 PM. There is a connection time but I didn't list it.
Flight Break down Costs:
$625 - Fare
+ $140 - Taxes + Airline fees
Equals = $765
Flying out of Indianapolis, IN Airport (IND):
American Airlines Flight 579/2896 - Leaves at 7:25 AM and arrives in Mazatlán, MX at 12:10 PM and has one stop in Dallas, TX (Connection time of 2 hours) - Total travel time of 6 hours and 45 minutes **There are only 3 seats left available on this flight**
Flying home
American Airlines Flight 2896/1798 Leaves at 12:50 PM and arrives in Indianapolis, IN at 11:10 PM. With a connection time of 3 hours and 35 minutes in Dallas, TX.
Flight Break down Costs:
$488 - Fare
$140 - Taxes + Airline fees
Equals = $628
As well, when I was at WalMart in Oxford today getting lunch things for work this next week I stopped the manager to see if they would be willing to donate art Supplies because when I get down there and if able I would love to do little art projects with them, if given the time. This includes painting (w/acrylics or watercolors), drawing/coloring, and many other artistic things that one can do with some supplies if given them.
I'm still planning as if I am going. I'm just waiting on the Lord to move everything to give me the green light. I would LOVE to purchase my airline ticket tomorrow, but as it sits right now I'm not sure if I can do that? Prayer Worriers PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PRAY for me in this circumstance.
Adiós y gracias!
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Monday, July 1, 2013
Decisions.... Opportunities..... Wonders of the Lord
I feel extremely overwhelmed at the current moment! But really the word "overwhelmed" is pretty much an understatement. I feel pulled, and from where I am... sit... view things... it's not bad.... it's really good. The bad part of if is timing, and the lack of funds. The lack of funds has me upset really. The desire is HUGE!!!!! But reality pretty much squashes my desire. :o( Don't read this as me putting my AMAZING Abba in " "'s or in ( )'s, because I am not by any means. As well, I know that God is pretty infamous about working in unrealistic ways and making everything happen... in His time. God has done it before, 2x's before actually!!! Both of my trips to Guatemala were fully funded, passport included!!!
Towards the end of last month I just felt completely racked with thoughts of "what's next" for me. I know for a fact that sometime between August 27th (next month) and two years from that point in time I'll be coming into a little over $4,000's. I have given it some serious consideration about what I want to do with it... Take a really lavish vacation... that would unfortunately be by myself (just calling it as I see it right now), or put it to more practical use; go on a internship/mission trip. Out of the two I'm seriously decided on the mission trip. It just seems like a better choice for myself, and it so totally fits my style. I don't want to go on a lavish vacation and have NO ONE to experience it with.... boring!!!! I'm about community, fellowship, and service to others, and sharing in the moments of life with others, I always have been.
On Wednesday, June26th in the last hour of the day I emailed my friend who works down in Monterey, Mexico with Back2Back Ministries this message.
Really pretty much an unprompted message to her. My thoughts were still pretty scattered, and nothing yet clear in my mind. Hope responded to my message:
I received an email back from Chelsie today:
So what now? I haven't got a clue!!!! I'm to house sit for my SPN professor June 8th or 9th through I think the 28th or 29th (I'm not 100% sure when it stops?). When I read her message about having a children's home with children having special needs my heart about leaped out of my chest!!!! Then reality smacking me in the face!!! Then I heard a still small voice in my heart and my head, "Don't put me in a box Fontaine." Then my head started thinking about numbers, cost of getting down there, cost of room and board, cost of hours lost at work (I'm not full time, I have not holiday pay or PTO), finding coverage at work for a week.... and the list goes on......
I would LOVE to full take this opportunity that is infront of me at the moment. And plan for this short term mission trip to go and love on these kids, and serve them when and where they need it. But from where I sit right now... I haven't got a penny to even put this into any kind of action. The flights alone starts at $723 from Cincinnati and $673 from Dayton. I don't even have a clue how much room and board is on the campus there?
Oh Heavenly Abba PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE provide me some clarity, guidance, and direction. If I am to go July 27th through August 2nd make my path straight infront of me. Provide me with the confidence that this is what I am to do, and to provide me with the funds and the coverage at work so it leaves no one lacking need for anything.
I could cry I'm so happy to have this technically offered, but scared that it may not happen?
Towards the end of last month I just felt completely racked with thoughts of "what's next" for me. I know for a fact that sometime between August 27th (next month) and two years from that point in time I'll be coming into a little over $4,000's. I have given it some serious consideration about what I want to do with it... Take a really lavish vacation... that would unfortunately be by myself (just calling it as I see it right now), or put it to more practical use; go on a internship/mission trip. Out of the two I'm seriously decided on the mission trip. It just seems like a better choice for myself, and it so totally fits my style. I don't want to go on a lavish vacation and have NO ONE to experience it with.... boring!!!! I'm about community, fellowship, and service to others, and sharing in the moments of life with others, I always have been.
On Wednesday, June26th in the last hour of the day I emailed my friend who works down in Monterey, Mexico with Back2Back Ministries this message.
- Fontaine Selby
Hola Hope!!!
So I've been tossing things around in my head for the past two weeks.... & the things tossing in my mind is mission work. Next summer I'd love to volunteer my time (about a month... maybe longer?) to one of two ministries; Casa Bernabe Orphanage in Guatemala or with you in Monterey, helping to teach kids. More specifically in Art Education. Its a little Weird to have this prompting.... Never had it or one before? And it being so specific, as it is? I know where to start... Before The Lord and seeking His guidance. But I guess my question to you... Do you guys even allow that for the 10+ ages? If so, how can I start the ball rolling (so to speak)? I know the supplies aren't cheap, especially if I can do what is love to do/share with the youth if given that chance. However, I know I have some money coming towards me within the next year (maybe sooner) or so & I could get things donated (or $$ to purchase it where ever God sends me). Can you help me search through this? I'm confused and yet really extremely excited.
Really pretty much an unprompted message to her. My thoughts were still pretty scattered, and nothing yet clear in my mind. Hope responded to my message:
- Hope Maglich Garcia
Hey Fontaine!
I love what God is doing in your heart. We do offer internships during the summer months down here in B2B. It is the kind of thing where you would come and help us with the visiting missions teams that come down during the months of June and July. I can't guarantee that you would only do art ed stuff, but I'm sure you could incorporate it in with other activities. To intern with B2B you have to first come on a mission trip to visit us. So that would be the first step for you. If you are interested in this you can contact Chelsie Puterbaugh in our b2b home office. She could help hook you up with a mission team for a trip down. Her e-mail is: cputerbaugh@back2back.org
I received an email back from Chelsie today:
Hi Fontaine!
Thank you for your email and sharing a bit about yourself.
Just a little fact - in Mazatlan, MX we serve with a children's home where all of the children have special needs - either physically, mentally, or both.
Check out our website to see pictures: https://www.facebook.com/b2bmazatlan?fref=ts
It is a very special site and home. I wanted to throw that out there because you said that you are a special education major :)
Thankfully, we have trips year round! So, I would look into taking a trip with us some time this fall. Applications are due by the end of October and we make decisions by the end of November into December.
Chris Ramos is the man that you will receive your application from: cramos@back2back.org.
Could you come on a trip even this summer? Any dates in July available? Our last week is July 27 - August 2nd.
Would that work?
Let me know!
Thanks, I look forward to hearing from you :)
Chelsie
So what now? I haven't got a clue!!!! I'm to house sit for my SPN professor June 8th or 9th through I think the 28th or 29th (I'm not 100% sure when it stops?). When I read her message about having a children's home with children having special needs my heart about leaped out of my chest!!!! Then reality smacking me in the face!!! Then I heard a still small voice in my heart and my head, "Don't put me in a box Fontaine." Then my head started thinking about numbers, cost of getting down there, cost of room and board, cost of hours lost at work (I'm not full time, I have not holiday pay or PTO), finding coverage at work for a week.... and the list goes on......
I would LOVE to full take this opportunity that is infront of me at the moment. And plan for this short term mission trip to go and love on these kids, and serve them when and where they need it. But from where I sit right now... I haven't got a penny to even put this into any kind of action. The flights alone starts at $723 from Cincinnati and $673 from Dayton. I don't even have a clue how much room and board is on the campus there?
Oh Heavenly Abba PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE provide me some clarity, guidance, and direction. If I am to go July 27th through August 2nd make my path straight infront of me. Provide me with the confidence that this is what I am to do, and to provide me with the funds and the coverage at work so it leaves no one lacking need for anything.
I could cry I'm so happy to have this technically offered, but scared that it may not happen?
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Starting a new path? Maybe?
So lately for the past few weeks or so, maybe a little longer - not sure but this has been on my mind, - about volunteering for a possible internship at either Casa Bernabe Orphanage in Guatemala City, Guatemala, C.A. or at Back2Back Ministries in Monterey Mexico. I would absolutely LOVE to be able to teach an art program with the children!! And I get giddy when I think about the possibilities of doing just that!! Its a little Weird to have this prompting.... Never had one like it before? And for it being so specific, as it is? I know where to start... Obviously before The Lord and seeking His guidance through the next few steps. I sent an email to my friend Hope Maglich in seeking information, guidance and to share the excitement in this prompting. She sent one back to me informing me that first things first, I would need to come down there on a short term missionary trip with a team so that they could meet me first. And she gave me a contact email to get some more information.
When everything is said and done, and I am approved for a month to two month internship I could be very well teaching general education and art education!!! I'm excited, yet feeling very daunted at the series of tasks in front of me. This is more than "going through the motions" to get something done. It's bathing it in prayer, seeking spiritual guidance, listening to the Lord speak to me, and much much much more!!! Please join me in prayer to allow God's plans for my life unfold before me!!!!
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Comfort me?
If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but don't love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God's secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but don't love others, I would be nothing. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it, but I I didn't love others, I would have gained nothing.
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever truth wins. Love never gives up, never looses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 1 Corinthians 13:1-7
Be still and know that I am God. Psalms 46:10
I knew something was up, because when I awoke this morning my heart was extremely heavy (not as heavy as it is at this moment though). I knew.... just knew something was up. I just didn't know "what" specifically. As I was speaking to one of the Associate Pastors at my church this morning about how this past week has been (it was a nightmare... I'll spare details) and how I've felt forgotten. I told him that the scriptures above were like repeating themselves over and over and over in my mind and in my heart (I think my heart knew what was up?). So I've decided that they will be my next piece in my "Written Promises Series" of Illustrations.
These two scriptures have been giving me comfort, with the exception of tears falling every now and then when my thoughts and the feeling of loss get the better of me.
From this time of quieting my heart again, and putting more focus on my Lord and spending more time with Him. I'm not settling for anything less than His plans. As Jeff spoke to me today, he told me that he sees the Lord getting ready to do something really soon in my life that will be a huge movement for me. Now I don't know what this will be? But I'm curious, and trusting in His Will that it will come to pass.
The Dream Man of Mine is a post that I made when I was working at Chick-fil-a, when a coworker of mine said that she wrote her list, which inspired me to write mine. Call it my petition.... here it is again.
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever truth wins. Love never gives up, never looses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 1 Corinthians 13:1-7
Be still and know that I am God. Psalms 46:10
I knew something was up, because when I awoke this morning my heart was extremely heavy (not as heavy as it is at this moment though). I knew.... just knew something was up. I just didn't know "what" specifically. As I was speaking to one of the Associate Pastors at my church this morning about how this past week has been (it was a nightmare... I'll spare details) and how I've felt forgotten. I told him that the scriptures above were like repeating themselves over and over and over in my mind and in my heart (I think my heart knew what was up?). So I've decided that they will be my next piece in my "Written Promises Series" of Illustrations.
These two scriptures have been giving me comfort, with the exception of tears falling every now and then when my thoughts and the feeling of loss get the better of me.
From this time of quieting my heart again, and putting more focus on my Lord and spending more time with Him. I'm not settling for anything less than His plans. As Jeff spoke to me today, he told me that he sees the Lord getting ready to do something really soon in my life that will be a huge movement for me. Now I don't know what this will be? But I'm curious, and trusting in His Will that it will come to pass.
The Dream Man of Mine is a post that I made when I was working at Chick-fil-a, when a coworker of mine said that she wrote her list, which inspired me to write mine. Call it my petition.... here it is again.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
My Brother's Harassment with Butler County Sheriffs and Hamilton City P.D.
This is Tim's (my younger brother) letter to Channel 9 News:
Dear Channel 9 News:
I purchased my 2005 Ford Mustang in 2008 a year after the
first Transformers movie came out in theaters. Being a huge fan of this
blockbuster movie I decided to “transform” my car into a Decepticon: Barricade,
a police car. I started in the redesigning process of my car not too long after
I bought it. Every emblem, the light-bar, & all of the badges/tags are an
exact replica from the movie car and as well does not specify any city, county,
or state law enforcement agency. Stephanie Baldwin called the sheriff office in
Hamilton Ohio to find out if having a functional light bar on my car was okay.
The Clerk told her that as long as I don’t operate it on public roads that it
would not be a problem.
In July of 2012 my father,
Stephanie, and I took my mustang and my father’s mustang (as well is an ’05) to
Myrtle Beach, SC to the annual Mustang Week. Where mustangs from all over the
United States convene to show off the vast collections of these amazing cars
from all over. The three of us had to drive through 6 different states to get
to this car show; we had no conflict with city, county, or state police during
our travels.
October 5, 2012 around 1:00 PM, I
was pulled over by a Butler County Sheriff to talk with me about my car. He
asked me if I had talked to anybody about the decals and the light bar I told
him that we called the sheriff’s office and checked. He asked me details about
what I have done to the car and if he could see everything turned on. He said
that my car was pretty impressive that I was able to do all the upgrades myself
and that he really liked it; he sent me on my way without a ticket, warning or
suggesting that I take anything off.
Then on October 13, 2012, my father (Robert Selby), and girlfriend
(Stephanie Baldwin), and I attended a car show in Xenia, Ohio. I was in a car
accident right after the car show and a State Highway Patrol Officer, Timothy
Bullock, was called to the scene. The Officer at the scene told me that he
would have to check into the car to see if what I had on my car was ok to
drive. He came back and stated that everything was fine and that there were no
laws being broken.
My car had not been driven from
October 13, 2012 until January 2013, due to being in the shop for repairs.
I had my car back for maybe a few
weeks in early-mid February, when I was on my way back from watching my niece
and was pulling right out of McDonalds parking lot onto Washington Boulevard. I
went up to the light on the corner of Washington Boulevard and Eaton Avenue in
the Left turning lane with my left turn signal on. It was right around midnight
when I was sitting at the red light a Butler County Sheriff pulled up behind
me, and a Hamilton City Police officer to my right. Sitting at this light for about 3 minutes when the Hamilton
City P.D. backed his car up to the Butler County Sherriff and talked. When the
light turned green I proceeded to turn. The Hamilton Police Officer pulled
behind the Sheriff and the Sheriff and Police Officer pulled me over. I put my
flashers on and pulled into the Hamilton High School parking lot so that we
were out of the street. All of a sudden I noticed that there was five police
cruisers at the scene, 3 Hamilton City Officers and 2 Butler County Sheriffs. I
felt like they thought I had just committed a serious crime and I still had no
idea why they were all pulling me over. All of the cruisers had their
spotlights on my car and myself.
Officers were reaching inside my car and banging on the light-bar and
one even said, “Off the record I like your car,” and the Hamilton City Officers
stood by taking pictures of my car with their cell phones. The Sheriff was
shining a flashlight on my light bar trying to see what color the lights were.
When I was asked to get out of my car, the Butler County Sherriff gave me a
“pat down” looking for weapons, or paraphernalia which took him about 10
seconds. I complied with everything that was asked of me, all but permission to
search my car. I remained calm when answering all of the interrogating
questions that were extremely random. I was harassed by five police officers
that night for no reason at all. I was not doing anything wrong! Then the
Sheriff wrote me a ticket for a CRIMINAL CHARGE that was still under a minor
misdemeanor and threatened to tow my car if him or his fellow officers ever
seen it on the road again. As well it took this officer a good 10-15 minutes to
actually write this ticket. Our
community is trying to prevent bullying and that was all that they were doing.
I was sent to court on February 28, 2013 where I pled Not Guilty to
the charge. From there they set a court date for April 2, 2013 where
it was continued, due to the magistrate having another case to hear. It was
then continued to April 9, 2013 where it was then continued to May 14, 2013 do
to the Officer who wrote the ticket did not show up. While all this time I was
unable to drive my car. Then on May 14, 2013 the Officer who charged me did not
show up to court again so the case was dismissed. State Trooper Timothy Bullock was summoned to court on my
behalf to testify that my car was not illegal to drive at all two hearings, as
well he appeared all two times and was happy to help me out in this
predicament.
May
20, 2013 three officers came to my house to take a family member into questioning,
before they had all left they stopped and talked with me about my car. They
stated that there was nothing illegal about my car and they complimented me on
all of my hard work and heart that I have put onto the car. They even said that
they would rather have my car to patrol around in, than the cruisers they
currently had.
On
May 22, 2013 I took my girlfriend to her moms work to pick up her check that
was sent to her moms house. On our way there I passed THREE cop cars; 1st was directly behind me going towards the
Hamilton Freshman building coming from New Miami then drove beside me and did
nothing. The 2nd one was Turning at a light coming towards me and did nothing.
The 3rd one was at Speedway Gas station on the corner of Washington Boulevard
and Eaton Avenue (the same corner where I was pulled over and harassed by the 3
Hamilton City Officers, and the 2 Butler County Sheriffs) pulling into a pump
right next to me, the officer said nothing to me, as well did nothing to
acknowledge even my existence. It was pretty obvious, myself and my car was not
breaking any laws by simply being.
We
were home for approximately 15-20 minutes, which would make it around 5
o’clock, a Butler County Sheriff pulls into my driveway. The first thing that the Officer asked
me was what agency I had worked for. Not the usual “Were you driving this
vehicle in (blah, blah, blah – listing of the place and time of concern). It
could have been my father driving my car, it’s in his name, or it could have
been my girlfriend, or any of my five brothers and sisters, but no he
automatically assumed that “I” was the one driving because he had a “so called”
witness. But not wanting to cause any trouble or give any suspicion of being
noncompliant, I responded with “I do not work for one sir.” He had to ask me
that because there is NOTHING on my car that has to do with any jurisdiction of
police officers. The officer then
started going on about how he had a “witness” willing to testify that I had ran
two red lights and was doing double or even triple the speed limit in a
school zone by the high school. My girlfriend was in the car with me when I was
accused of running these red lights. Hamilton High School was let out at 1:30
P.M. for an early dismissal. Stephanie drove through this school zone on her
way home from work at Fort Hamilton, when the lights were on, letting cars know
to slow down and watch for pedestrians.
The only school zone that had active school zone lights, was at Fillmore
on Main, Street and I was going with the flow of traffic at 16-18 mph. Again,
my girlfriend was in my car and is a witness to that.
The
Officer that came to my house told me that he was giving me a verbal warning,
as well he asked me if I thought that having the word “Police” on the side of
my car and a light bar made me feel beneficial to all the other citizens by
speeding, doing U-turns and running lights? He had not witnessed me doing any
of that; therefore he has no right to accuse me of it. I told him “No sir I do
not. I have not broken any laws because I did not run through red lights or
speed through a school zone.” I also told him how I wanted to become a Hamilton
Police Officer and tried State Highway patrol but that wasn’t for me. The
officer told me that I will not get anywhere with all of that on my car and
suggested that I take it all off. But he also stated earlier in the
conversation that I was not breaking any laws with what was on my car. So why
would I have to take everything off if he stated that there was no issue at
first? This Officer did not see me commit anything wrong nor did he have the
right to come to my own home to harass me over something that is merely
“hear-say,” again if there was even a witness. The Officer would not even
listen to what I had to say. When I tried to speak, explain, or even ask a
question he always interrupted me by putting up his right hand (as if to stop
me mid statement) and stated that “he knew the law” and I apparently did not.
My
family and I are not putting up with this ridiculous situation anymore. They
are criticizing me as a bad person when I have built this car for kids and the
enjoyment of others. I have taken my car to a middle school where I let kids
see my car and sit inside. This whole idea was for the kids. Kids go to car
shows with their parents all of the time and I figured a replica of Barricade
at a car show would be interesting for kids and it is; parents and teens are
also very interested in my car and I am always receiving compliments. I always
let kids and adults sit in my car because I am doing this for them.
What I don’t get or even begin to
understand is why are the Butler County Sheriffs, and Hamilton City Police
Officers harassing me about my car when there is nothing on there that is
impersonating a police officer and myself having no intention on EVER
impersonating a police officer? Your guess will be as good as mine.
I’m
tired of being hit left and right with an officer saying “Your car is fine to
drive, I see no problem with it” and another officer pulling me over and finding
any and every issue under the sun with my car and writing me a citation for
what is so called illegal. Before any and all modifications were done to my
car, I called and made sure everything I was doing was legal so I wouldn’t face
all the ramifications that I’m currently dealing with. I haven’t been able to
drive my car for well over 8 almost 9 months without dealing with some issue
pertaining to my car. This has gotten old and extremely annoying. My car does
not pose any threats it is for show. It is for children and adults. It is for
the public to share in the fact that the Transformers movies were produced in a
manor that all generations can enjoy. Can Channel 9 News help me shed some
deeper light that bullying occurs EVERYWHERE in our society, even among police
who are to protect and defend the people who pay their salaries for REAL crime.
To
get a hold of me please contact me at: 513.252.1239 or email him at baricade64305@yahoo.com.
Thank you,
Tim Selby
May 25, 2013
Update:
Tonight my father, my girlfriend and I went to a car show in Hamilton, at Rural
King – in the Burger King parking lot on Main St. On our way there I was pulled
over by a New Miami P.D. Unit who was headed in the opposite direction and
turned his unit around to pull me over. The officer informed me that Butler
County has a “Be on the look out” label on my car. Once this officer was
finished informing me of this warning that Butler County has on my car, he
advised me that he really liked my car. This officer tried to tell me that I “ran
a red light” and that was the reason for him pulling me over when he clearly
did a “U” turn when I wasn’t even near a traffic light. When I informed him of
his “U” turn before the light he then confirmed with me that the reason he
pulled me over was for “the code” that Butler County Sheriffs has put out on my
car. THIS IS TOTALLY UNPROFESSIONAL, AND BECOMING TREMENDOUSLY MORE THAN JUST
HARASSMENT… IT’S BORDER LINE ENTRAPMENT OR BETTER YET STALKING!!!
I have put together a powerpoint of pictures that I'm trying to attach to the email (but my computer is being stupid)
Monday, February 18, 2013
Pruning a rose garden so it can flourish
I've been apart of an outreach ministry now for about 6 to 7 years.
While I was apart of a small group from the Vineyard Community Church in Tri-County. Sara (the small group leader) invited me to help serve on a "Second Mile Saturday" team; The Good Samaritan Run (aka: The Good Sam Run, GSR). At the GSR before we go to downtown Cincinnati, we meet up in the Great Room at the VCC church to make the Turkey, Cheese, and Mustard sandwiches, sort though and individually bag the donated bake goods, and mix together juice or hot chocolate. Generally, we have a little devotion and prayer before get head out. This is done every Saturday; rain, snow, ice, or sunshine. I know of maybe two times of the GSR not going out and that is only because of there being consequences for being on the roads. This team has been going to Washington Park (which is now a doggie park and a parking garage), and our new location on Liberty St (across from Shell Gas Station)for 11-12 years.
Talk about taking myself out of my comfort zone and putting me in the front lines of service, right here at "home" and not out on a mission trip in another country. But being apart of this amazing team/group of people has helped me grow in more ways than I can even begin to describe.
I've made relationships with people who I would never have thought to associate myself with. In my mind and heart when I first started volunteering my time, I was wanting to go and bless those who were hungry with; food, a nice smile/words, a listening heart/ears, and the love of the Father. I was not expecting anything in return. But it all was 10x's more! I've made relationships, bonds with children, men and women down there that I honestly wouldn't know who I would be if I didn't have them in my life. I can think of specific moments when I went, and was just going through the motions of passing out food. Not really talking to anyone, not really wanting to be there, but there was no where else I had to be when God sent a dear friend that I've made down there to give me a huge spiritual hug and let me know that everything was going to be okay. I was there to bless others, but on that day I was the one being blessed and lifted up. Talk about being humble.
With being in college again, my time is completely limited. With having multiple papers due, Spanish to learn and study, chapter readings, and exams to prepare for I haven't been able to be down there every Saturday. Unfortunately, my heart feels empty when I can't make it down there for 2 to 3 hours on a Saturday with the GSR team.
But now, I've just learned this past week that a good friend who's been leading this team of people for quite some time is stepping down. That's okay! God has timing for everything! As this body of Christ, this team of volunteers, goes through this time of change in leadership and the unknown I feel like God is saying that He wants to take us to a higher level of service and a higher level of worship. Much like pruning the dead leaves off of a rose bush. We need to make way for bigger and better things that God has for us to take, use, and do.
God may want us to team up with the Dream Center of Cincinnati? Or he may have something different in mind for us all together? I love all who I serve with on this team, and all the children, men, and women I serve. I'm leaving the pains that change has in the hands of the Father. He is the one who holds tomorrow, and He is the one who knows my future. I will walk with my Heavenly Abba through anything.
Monday, November 26, 2012
Could of been? But then....
This is not a "I hate my life and wish I made different choices" kind of blog. But here lately I have been thinking about if I chose different paths in my past, where would I be today? Would I like who I was? Would I be sincerely happy with myself?
For example, if I did choose to go to the Art Institute of Chicago back in 2002 would I be living in the windy city? Would I be working in a large design firm?
Or lets go back a little further if I didn't go that route to school that morning in high school... would my life be different? Would I be different?
Things have been playing over and over and over in my head of what could have been.
But then again, if those things did actually take place... I wouldn't be who the person I am today. I wouldn't have the relationships that I have today. I wouldn't be the woman who've I become. I wouldn't have gone to the places that I've been too. I wouldn't have been as impacted, touched, and blessed as I am now.
I'm human though... I just wonder sometimes....
:oD
For example, if I did choose to go to the Art Institute of Chicago back in 2002 would I be living in the windy city? Would I be working in a large design firm?
Or lets go back a little further if I didn't go that route to school that morning in high school... would my life be different? Would I be different?
Things have been playing over and over and over in my head of what could have been.
But then again, if those things did actually take place... I wouldn't be who the person I am today. I wouldn't have the relationships that I have today. I wouldn't be the woman who've I become. I wouldn't have gone to the places that I've been too. I wouldn't have been as impacted, touched, and blessed as I am now.
I'm human though... I just wonder sometimes....
:oD
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